Stress and the Holidays

I love the holidays, especially Christmas. But, why do they have to come with all of the stress? Every year around this time, I start to second guess whether or not I wish Christmas even existed as a holiday. When I stop to think about it, I don't even know why I get so worked up over it. It's really not that big of a deal when I try to think rationally. Yet, I get so anxious about the parties and the family get togethers. I'm afraid that my idiot brother is going to ruin our family get together on Christmas day. I am afraid he is going to get into one of his bitchy moods and bring everyone else down with him. God he is a real jerk sometimes. Anyway, Merry Christmas to anyone who reads this.

Pets are good for us

I am so glad I have my cat. Even though she is an idiot, I love her to pieces. It is awesome that even when I come home in a bad mood, my cat still wants to rub up against my leg, she still wants a treat from the cupboard, she still wants me to pet her. She never cares what mmod I am in. She just wants my love and to give me hers. What if people were more like that? How awesome would that be?

It's starting to get cold outside

It's October and Halloween will be here next week. The leaves are falling off of the trees. I love this time of year except when I think about how cold it is going to get for the next few months. I wish Christmas was in late January instead of December. Did you know that December 25 isn't really Christ's bithday. I couldn't believe it when I learned it. Apparently December 25 was just a date chosen to celebrate Christmas by one of the Pope's in history. I can't believe that most of my life I was lead to believe that Jesus was acutally born on December 25th. Why don't they make this more public. I guess his real birthday was sometime around the start of spring. Don't you think it would be more appropriate to be celebrating Jesus's birthday when everything in nature is coming to life. It makes more sense to me. Don't get me wrong. I do love Christmas. It is the most wonderful time of the year.

My cat is a retard

Once in a while my cat will find some toy that I bought her months or even years ago. I have no idea where she comes up with these things. Like today, she was playing with this little toy catnip mouse that I think I bought her for Christmas like 3 years ago. I haven't seen the thing in years. I keep my house really clean. I just don't know where she hides these things. How come I don't find them when I'm moving furniture to vacuum or something? She is like a magician.

On the hunt for good sites about depression

I do a ton of digging around on the internet. I am looking for sites that might help me with my own depression. There are some good ones out there. I especially like wikipedia for explaining some of the terminology. But, most of the sites I have found are a bunch of junk filled ones with useless information and a ton of ads. Do these people really want to help someone or just make money. That is depressing just thinking about it.

Can blogging be good for depression?

I think it can. Just by writing about it and reading what others write about it makes me feel a little better. I think this was a good idea.

I read about how other people were making friends online who were going through similar problems. I think that if we stick together we can really help each other with our depression. Sometimes when I get really depressed I try to think about all these other people with depression online and it helps me a little.

Depression Video

I found this video on Youtube. It explains a little bit about depression.

Sick of the politics yet?

Is anyone else completely sick of hearing about politics yet? I hate October every year because we are bombarded with tons of political ads. I don't even like anybody who's running. I just wish there was a way to turn the ads off on the television so I didn't have to see them.

I can't wait till election day to get it over with.

Meet Jan

Hello out there. This is Jan. I have no idea what I'm doing. I have never had my own blog before. Hopefully it doesn't suck.


I am a cat lover. I like movies. I like reading other peoples blogs. I have this thing called depression. My friend told me creating my own blog would help my depression. So here I am. So far its not working. This sucks.